nona always wrote that the same circumstances that harden the heart soften the skin,
but her unpublished pages still didn't know as many tears as wakefield's poems.
poems were the only thing that told charles why he could sing 'hallelujah" with the congregation
& still feel like he was in a hell
he couldn't extol.
henry, his drug of choice was pills & enshroudment
but his wife's drug was more work, more scolding and more church.
elizabeth,
elizabeth's drawers were full of boys she's never talked to,
and death letters she'd never quite signed;
while her brother joseph would climb the staircase to the roof where he'd strum his heartstrings.
he'd look down again wanting to kiss that soft concrete
except this time he'd pucker his lips
don't tell me that this isn't humanity.
because humanity is pissing on bushes that took years to twist their roots
& standing over people who took even longer to unravel theirs.
(but if you feel as though you're being uprooted, don't stop trying to bloom).
nona crumpled her pages and shouted
"i've been putting pen to paper for months, how have i not written the loneliness out of me yet?
if i was a poet, the ache in my chest would know it"
& charles smashed his window so he could swallow the truthful air
while he threw his church tie out into the garden.
elizabeth remembered that her closet was full of letters she'd never wrote & dresses she'd never worn;
and joseph kept pleading with the Man who lives at the top of the Staircase
"let me go,
just let me go."
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as for me, i will finally say to my father
"i still listen to your 8-tracks & wear your leather jacket because i like to remind myself of you,
just please don't let my mother forget what you look like when you smile
& don't let anyone forget what you laugh like when you're not trying to.
now nona,
the corners of her pages are unfolding
& she couldn't write this poem with her pen so she wrote it across her heart
THIS IS HUMANITY.
charles
is told that his garden is salvation;
he walks between his pine trees & shouts his soul to the sky
and elizabeth,
she twirls in her leather dresses & exhales her words across people's lips.
as for joseph,
he takes a walk down the staircase to charles' garden
& lets the snowflakes speckle his glasses, fill his smile & wrinkle his leather shoes
(he's untwisted his roots).
for you, and for me...
i know that our bedrooms are starting to feel like graveyards
but remember that nothing is stitched into stone.
if they try to cover your eyes, the light from your irises will penetrate the fragile skin of their hardened fingers;
the teeth in your smile are made out of a million different versions of the moon
& you have always only ever been more than enough.
so take off your leather jackets:
leave them behind
and come unravel this thread with me.
(fondly & forever,
'nona)
beautiful
ReplyDeleteI love the way you read poems.
ReplyDeleteIts almost like you drag out your words,
and I like the way it sounds.
This is beautiful.
ReplyDeleteAn absolutely beautiful piece, and when you slam it.. Just WOW. You're voice is amazing keep writing after this class is over you have a gift
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ReplyDeleteGosh. How do you do it?
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