r.l.g. → e.m.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y51LmDrNkfs
http://rosylnlunagrey.blogspot.com/2015_10_12_archive.html?m=0

with all of my, heart.

to : rosyln luna grey

cupboard under the stairs 

#4 privet drive

little whinging, surrey 

from : the heart

superior to the liver,

between the lungs

my dearest rosy,

          let's not sugar-coat this, let's get straight to the heart of it:

i am sick of this. i love you but i'm tired. i've been sitting in this cold cage of ribs for 18 years now & i'm starting to lose my voice. 

                so please,

hear me,

hear me. 

i'm trying to speak your language, but i can't quite seem to get the conjugations right or maybe you're just not listening. but just like you, i know what it's like to be beaten. 

please hear me, i know you. 

i see the secrets behind your perfect childhood and i see you even after you & the sun have gone to bed. 

rosy, you're my reason, & i'm your reason: 

for purpose. 

so please, just hear me. 

with all of my,

heart. 

 (art by the beautiful c. jade)

bleed

if you must go,

go to where you know you won't be alone. 

if you must dream,

don't let the pictures in your mind fall asleep. 

if you must run, my love, 

run to the hills that will take you above;

& if you must pray,

just plead to be sane. 

if you must ache,

don't leave your heart somewhere it cannot wake. 

if you must speak, brave one,

speak only words that won't draw out your blood;

but if you must bleed,

your scars you must keep.

if you must hide,

remember the feeling of warm morning light. 

and if you must die,

die with the things 

that kept you 

in this life.  

things to learn from a teenage mind

i'm no longer a child;

so please,

take this advice from a newborn adult who doesn't know what she's doing.

things i learned at 17:

• your parents are lovely people, but they really don't have it all figured out.

• sleep is a very pitiful form of refuge.  get out of bed and do some living, dammit.

•  having a relationship with God is important, but so is loving people who don't.

•  learn from other people's mistakes so you won't go through them yourself.  don't be just like your dad, or your mother, or your oldest sibling.

• learn to appreciate the human spirit; don't think that huge black guy on the train is super creepy just because he talks to you about his life before coming to the u.s.                                              
• always listen and give people advice, but please do not interrupt their mourning with your own problems.

• remember that other people's lives are just different, not better.

• the best places have the worst cell phone service.  must be a hint.

• recognize the things you love about yourself: it'll help you see the good in others.

• we were not created as conscious beings just to feel continually victimized by circumstances.

• "in a society that profits from self-doubt, liking yourself is a rebellious act".

• God is the best artist.

• the secret to telling a good lie is don't overly explain, and throw in one good detail.

• work out & eat right to feel healthy.  getting thin/ripped is only just a bonus.

• try to have the same faith as you did when you were a child.

• you honestly don't have time to procrastinate. think about it.

• the pokemon theme is the best song for working out.  like seriously you'll break your elliptical.

• recognize that suffering can be the biggest blessing.  learn from yourself, believe in opposition, and know that the deeper you hurt, the deeper you can appreciate beauty and joy.

• always flush public toilets with your foot.

in conclusion :

love your friends. love yourselves.  love your bodies.  smile. laugh. act beautiful. be beautiful. swim, a lot. eat some veggies.  go for a drive.  the end.

- rosy grey

(anthems for a 17-year-old girl - broken social scene)

(sixteen going on seventeen - the sound of music)

(carmen - lana del rey)

(edge of 17 - stevie nicks)

(furr - blitzen trapper)

(tree by the river - iron & wine)

(17 - youth lagoon) duh

(let's go - the cars)